Ouch! In more ways than one. He was absolutely right. What I had failed to realize, was this fan took the time to come up to me and share something incredibly special with me that happened in her life...then and again in that current musical moment that I provided...and I had just crapped all over it by complaining about my inability to hear on stage. How insensitive and selfish is that? Obviously, I was in no way doing all of this on purpose or to trivialize her moment. But none-the-less, I didn't recognize the special moment that was right in front of me.
After I told Cam this story, she shared her experience of learning to distinguish the differences between MODESTY AND HUMILITY; It went something like this; I'm paraphrasing of course.
“The first thing I did to understand the difference between modesty and humility, was to simply look both words up in the dictionary. When you read the definitions of both words you'll immediately recognize the distinction between them.”
“The overall meaning of the word modesty, is to hold or pull ones self back from action or reaction, so one doesn't appear to be too full of ones self, because one may think they could intimidate others.
Whereas humility's overall meaning is simply stating that “I am who I am.”
So when I reacted the way I did at my show, I was a coming from a place of modesty. I didn't have the confidence or awareness to simply acknowledge her praise and connection with me. I was too concerned with myself. I wrongfully assumed that she would not be able to handle that I believe in my talents. I wrongfully made a decision FOR her, denying her full access to my gifts/talents. How selfish right? I know...when you look at it that way, absolutely!
I know now that coming from a position of humility is a far more pure and truthful path for me now. When I come from a path of humility, it's ok to be somewhere that I'm sometimes afraid, or that I believe I can sing pretty well, or that sometimes I don't feel confidence in my abilities. But that's who I am and it's ok. Take it or leave it.
To give you another analogy of the difference between the words modesty and humility, you can think of humility as something that is completely naked. What you see is what you get. No frills, no bells and whistles. A person who is coming from a point of humility is not concerned with changing what others see.
A path derived from modesty would be in great need of accessory. The modest individual would require a situation to be “dressed up” because of their concern for how others think. Something a modest minded person may think subconsciously might be, “do they feel good about who I am?”
So I don't believe in modesty anymore. Only in the concept of humility.
What I took away from my last session with Cam is this; When someone approaches me to comment, congratulate or thank me for something I've done, I always take a moment, take a breath and simply say thank you. By doing so, that “thank you” means so much more than that. It means I acknowledge the actions you've taken to actively come up to me and share your experience. That is an incredibly special moment that I want to thank you for.
So take a breath...
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